So then I called up Phad Swift and we filmed the video and I was like ’‘I know this makes me sound like a crazy person but can we go to Colorado in like three days and film this video’‘. And then I was like ’‘Shit, dude, Sisyphus is the only song that can be the single, it represents the whole theme, this has to be the one’‘. And then I just sort of had a manic episode like a week before I announced the single was dropping on the 18th. It was gonna be one of those or Smiling at the Ground. The singles was gonna be Candles on Fire! or People Pleaser or Shades of Us. But it actually wasn’t gonna be the single at all. Like, every time I made an edit my manager would be like ‘'Oh, bro, you’re being crazy’‘ but then I’d send the new version and he’d be like ’‘Well, yeah, you were right, that was worth doing’‘, but like, he didn’t want to tell me that it was worth doing because he knew it would reinforce my crazy habits but the thing is they did actually end up making things better. I was definitely overdoing it but I think that made it more fire. I was honestly working on it pretty much until a day before I turned in the album. Sisyphus I did like starting September of 2020 and then I just sort of worked on it a lot over a long period of time.
And I love you when I'm back on the climb You're only with me in the back of my mind now It's a cycle, it's a path I can’t find, uh Sisyphus grimace, it’s the rock and roll, vulnerable Maybe it's my fate and it’s all my fault And I know You got a mountain of your own (Yeah) Wish it wouldn't feel so broken to me Tried to take the edge off, but that only brought it closer to me, uh And I just wanna live in a mo'fuckin' log cabin In a place where you never have to call back, never have to log back in I’ve been backlogged in black fog, I fall back in, dreamin' of times it wasn't all madness I just can't mimic it, though, I been in Sisyphus mode, lookin' up the path of a tall mountain And I keep getting stuck in these potholes, maybe I should just let the rock roll I've been so close to the peak, I know, but I'm tryna stay away from the drop, though So I don't They only love me when I'm back on the climb (Yeah) You're only with me in the back of my mind now It's a cycle, it's a path I can't find, uh Sisyphus grimace, it's the rock and roll, vulnerable Maybe it's my fate and it's all my fault And I know You got a mountain of your own (Yeah)